BY MYSELF
WHAT DO I DO TO IGNORE THEM BEHIND ME? DO I FOLLOW MY INSTINCT BLINDLY? DO I HIDE MY PRIDE/FROM THESE BAD DREAMS AND GIVE IN TO SAD THOUGHTS THAT ARE MADDENING? DO I/SIT HERE AND TRY TO STAND IT? OR DO I/TRY TO CATCH THEM RED-HANDED? DO I TRUST SOME AND GET FOOLED BY PHONINESS, OR DO I TRUST NOBODY AND LIVE IN LONELINESS? BECAUSE I CAN'T HOLD ON/WHEN I STRETCHED SO THIN I MAKE THE RIGHT MOVES BUT I'M LOST WITHIN I PUT ON MY DAILY FACADE BUT THEN I JUST END UP GETTING HURT AGAIN BY MYSELF [MYSELF] I ASK WHY, BUT IN MY MIND I FIND I CAN'T RELY ON MYSELF
I CAN'T HOLD ON [TO WHAT I WANT WHEN I STRETCHED SO THIN] IT'S ALL TOO MUCH TO TAKE IN I CAN'T HOLD ON [TO ANYTHING WATCHING EVERYTHING SPIN] WITH THOUGHTS OF FAILURE SINKING IN
IF I/TURN MY BACK I'M DEFENSELESS AND TO GO BLINDLY SEEMS SENSELESS IF I HIDE MY PRIDE AND LET IT ALL GO ON/THEN THEY'LL TAKE FROM ME TILL EVERYTHING IS GONE IF I LET THEM GO I'LL BE OUTDONE BUT IF I TRY TO CATCH THEM I'LL BE OUTRUN IF I'M KILLED BY THE QUESTIONS LIKE A CANCER THEN I'LL BE BURIED IN THE SILENCE OF THE ANSWER [BY MYSELF]
HOW DO YOU THINK/I'VE LOST SO MUCH I'M SO AFRAID/I'M OUT OF TOUCH HOW DO I EXPECT/I WILL KNOW WHAT TO DO WHEN ALL I KNOW/IS WHAT YOU TELL ME TO
DON'T YOU KNOW I CAN'T TELL YOU HOW TO MAKE IT GO NO MATTER WHAT I DO, HOW HARD I TRY I CAN'T SEEM TO CONVINCE MYSELF WHY I'M STUCK ON THE OUTSIDE
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